Never in a million years did I ever think I’d make myself be so vulnerable and available on social media. Hiding in the shadows, and only showing the best parts of me was always my real comfort. But today I put my WHOLE body on video, boxing and sweating it up. THE REAL, RAW THE HONEST AND ALL MY FLAWS. The good the bad the pretty and yes the ugly. It has taken me to lose a great part of my physical ability to stop caring about what others thought or were thinking of me. I have to now just care about what I think, and you know what? I now know that other people's opinions of me are none of my business. People will think what they want about you regardless of what you do. So now I’m just going to go for it. I am putting myself first. I have also learned that loving yourself first only gives you permission to love others more. You can't love others until you learn to love and take care of yourself first.
I have always just half a**’d things when it has come to my health and exercise. This time I’m going for it all the way and with passion and determination. I’m going all in. You have one life and mine is almost half over. That is if I live to be 100. In one and a half years I’ll be 50. I do not want to go through my 50’s fat, hurting, and unhealthy. If you asked me a year ago if I thought I’d be here right now, I might have wanted to but I would have not had the drive to get started. A year ago I was in a very different place. I was just going through the daily motions and not really aware of the damage I truly was doing to myself. I was stressed out and constantly on edge and always worried about this or that.
I feel like there is hope now. Like there is a light at the end of this tunnel. I am going to kick butt and take names ( I hope a lot of names too ha) I hope to also make an impact in other people's lives as well as my own.
This life is YOURS. It's your own rules. Your way. To find your passion, find what feeds you physically, mentally, and spiritually and go all in. If you don't try, then you will never know. Believe me the “what ifs” in life are worse than the “ I tried”.
Tabitha Martin April 28, 2020